Sunday, July 24, 2011

Good bye Amy Winehouse




あの時も、少し震えながら歌う繊細で砕けてしまうような彼女に、不思議な魅力を感じた事を覚えている。



昨日27歳の若さで自宅で死去したAmy Winehouse。

原因はまだ不明と言う事だが、薬物、アルコール依存症 オーバードーズの疑いがあるらしい。



薬物やアルコールへの依存の始まりはゆるやかで解りずらいと言う。

アルコールがドーパミンを放出し、それが脳に行動記憶され、飲酒欲求の感受性が増大されると言う。



2008年グラミー賞では最優秀新人賞など5部門を受賞し、全英1位はもちろんだが、全米でも2位に輝いた。しかしその時も薬物問題でビザの発行が出来ず入国出来ずに、リハビリ施設に入院してたりなどスキャンダルが多かった。



彼女と何度か行動を共にした友人のエルマンノは、本当に受けを狙っていろいろな事をしでかす人と違って、そのピュアで無邪気な行動に何度も微笑んだと言っている。



孤独で悲しい時に、がんばりすぎてバランスを失った時に逃げ込む先がお酒や薬だったのが悔しい。

自分さえも好きになれずに、逃げ込みたかった気持ちは解るけれど。


私は今日も深呼吸。すこし夜の街を歩いてみる。


It was March 1, 2008 on FENDI Stage in Paris. I remember I felt mysterious power in Amy WInehouse with her vibrating sensitive voice of singing.
Amy Winehouse died at home at the age of 27 yesterday. Newspaper says the reason for her death was not clear yet it is doubted to relate with drug or alcohol abuse.
Study says the beginning of drug abuse or getting alcoholic is slow and hard to detect. Alcohol makes brain remember drinking action and desire of drinking becomes increasing.
She got Freshman Award and other 5 categories awards in Grammy Award in 2008 and ranked no 1 in USA and 2nd in UK. At that time, she was already having drug problem so visa was not granted. And she was in the hospital for rehabilitation.
Ermanno who worked with her for a few times says that she was different from celebrities who drew people’s attention for being on gossip. She made him smile on her truly pure innocent actions. It is my regret that it was drug or alcohol for her to escape from sadness or unbalanced emotion after hard time, even though I understand her feelings, which made her hate herself and run away from reality.
I take deep breath today and want to walk around night city for a while.